मीले कुछ ज़ख्म ऐसे,
की मैं मरहम लगाना भूल गया|
जीन हातों से सीची थी सीयाई,
उन हातों को मैं दफनाना भूल गया|
भूल गया मैं वो हर शाम,
जब तेरे दर पर सजता हर जाम|
भूल गया यार सब भूल गया,
हर वो नाम जो कभी अपना लगता था|
आज मैं वो सब भूल गया|
तनहाई का आलम कुछ ऐसा छाया
की अपने सामने वाले मैं भूल गया|
इन हातों में शायद ऊपर वाला,
कीस्मत की लकीर बनाना ही भूल गया|

This one interesting poem written by an African black, I found on net.
So thought of sharing.
Well it goes like this...

When I born, I Black,
When I grow up, I Black,
When I go in sun, I Black,
When I scared, I black,
When I sick, I black,
And when I die, I still black.

And you White fella,
When you born, you Pink,
When you grow up, you White,
When you go in Sun, you Red,
When you cold, you Blue,
When you scared, you Yellow,
When you sick, you Green,
And when you die,you Gray.

And you calling me colored?.....

Changes not made to be..

Its 2 in the morning and im still howling around like a night owl...And im doin a lot of thinkin!!..I think that at certain point of time in your life you find yourself at crossroads where it is hard for you to decide where to head or move.You find yourself lonely in this still crowded place filled with filth and all the crapy stuff of life where everybody is trying to snatch your last rights and hook you to a place where you can't find even a single drop of water. Well for the past few weeks certain things have gone beyond my control. Would not like to mention here... But were all my faults, atleast i think so...So, trying to change myself, I dont know for whom or why?? Now Im getting forced to change or its happening on its own?? Well really difficult to tell.. Or is it good for me or bad? Can't say again...But probabily this change is inevitable. And somehow how i feel its building my character more and more... Shaping my future and prepraring myself for the things to come...Talkin bout changes I have changed a lot, what i was a few years back and what im now...Two different personalities poles apart fighting to decide whose better but reaching to a no conclusion...I have seen many downs and each down has taken me to a new high...Well this is change!!..So, if i have to pick one, i'll definitely choose the changed man in me or the man im getting changed to day by day...

Love is all you need!!...

Hmmm!!!.. Big question... Isn't it??... Recently i was listening to this song "All you need is Love"... And it made me write this post.. I won't lie but believe me that i'm 23 and still i never had any relationship what so ever...
Personally I have a given a lot of thought to it...I dont unerstand it completely but I'll say that love is all about companionship.. We meet that person everyday, we sit in coffee house,chatting about almost everthing...Taking a long walk together in sunset and in rainy season when a cool breeze strikes our face,siping a cup of tea together and walking on beach holding hand in hand, feeling the warmth...
When he/she's not around, you feel a deep void, a feeling of loosing something very precious...Now is it a feeling of love or companionship... Even I don't have a clear idea but just to contemplate my feellings i'll say that if u miss someone's company, someone's touch, someone's talking, you are very close to be in love to that person...
I'll say Love is not about calling in the middle of night and saying "I love you".. Nor it's about gifting a bouquet of roses on Valentine's day or finding desperate attempts to gift one...
I'll gift it because i feel like giving... To me sitting on a lake side for hours is much better then going on a shopping spree... To me riding with her on bike is much more romantic then gifting her a diamond...
Everbody have crushes in their lives... I too had my share of luck... But was it Love or infatuation or just another pasing moment...Well difficult to tell!!.In movies, as they say Love at first sight, I'll say it's Lust which comes first at sight... You are completely lost in some other world, you tend to laugh by yourself, you tend to forget everything else...Sometimes i feel that wy i never had such a feeling but then it sounds too kidish and fictious and can only be a part of some romantic movie pic..
So i'll rather settle for a more mature relationship where she should be a friend first and then a lover... She should be able to understand me and complement me...
and am still waiting for how it feels to be in love, to hold her hand, to look into her eyes, to see her sleeping... Well just a thought of it gives me so much pleasure and satisfaction!!...
How actual LOVE would feel alike??....

Globalization Vs Indianization

The common buzzword doing the corners these days is the term Globalization. Now let me start by defining what Globalization means. The Oxford says "To extend to other or all parts of the globe".
In the age of inernet, GPS and all the dashy gizmos no doubt the world has become a smaller place. A place where information can be send and recieved in seconds.
Sites like orkut, hi5 and the chatting sites has given a new dimensions to the term where you can make friends in any Goddam place on this earth. Now distance is no more a problem. You can communicate with any person with the greatest ease that you can ever imagined.
But are we Global in true sense? I feel in order to be truely Global one needs to be a true Indian first. Now the big question arise. Are we true Indian in all respects?
No matter India is a land of thousand cultures and castes where thousand of languages are spoken everyday. But the biggest irony is what these cultures has given us.
Hatred, Harmony, people form one community doesn't like to talk to the others, marriages between inter caste is prohibited, where riots are possible at a blink of an eye.
And the persons who defies these laws are beaten to death or put to shame by their own families and are disowned.
The recent case of sindhi girl marrying a muslim guy or a case of bride and groom of two different communities in Haryana tying the knot. The day to day demonstrations done by so called GODS-Bajrang Dal, Shiv Sena and so on publicising hatred against other communities.The list goes endless and news like these flashes every week on our TV sets boasting about our INDIANESS
Bieng born and brought up in Northern India, I did my engineering in Tamil Nadu and now working in Bangalore. I was always looked by suspicion because of my colour. The people didn't used to like people speaking Hindi. I mean what sort of INDIANESS is this? And our politicians talk about "Right to equality". Now I don't want to go into all this. It needs another huge debate.
My personal experience says these Castes, Communities and culture has done no good but has tarnished the country or my called INDIANESS into bits.
In the end I'll just infer that in order to be a true Global citizen and enjoying their benefits one must overcome all the pathetic religious and community issues.



Well the rest is others to decide!!...

No Matters

Morning, I saw grass full of dew
& thought GOD give me a little clue.
Wht Im upto, Whts my life existence,
Its shattered in pieces , needs some maintainance.
Tell me my GOD, wht im supposed to do,
Whn my mission is endless and still way to go.
No matter wht my life takes me through,
No matter how many turns it takes,
No matter how many times it makes or brakes,
No matter it seems to be so stand n still,
But one day I can & I will.
I will overcome every situation,
No matter how much time it takes,
Or for how much duration
I shall pass every hurdle wid dignity,
In positive respect and showing great integrity.
Good GOD , jst wish me best of luck
For there many seeds to sow and many flowers to pluck.

I don't want to name it..

After a heavy supper one night I decided to go for a walk...At the dead-end of a certain road I saw a flash of dark light.. I'm carried away by that unusual thing and out of nowhere I decide to touch and feel it.. As soon as i did, am taken very very far away..I go round and round and round and see a nothing but a spot of that same miscellaneous light. I decided to go close and have a first hand experience..A lot of random things comes to my mind.. I got further attracted to it and it seems to be continously increasing...Still clueless i decide to go further close...Now my curiousity comes to a full bloom...But the more close I go , more far the distance seems to be... What the heck??? This journey seems to be endless... I'm tired, I'm weak and cant move a little further...But I decide, no matter what happens i will find a way to get in... So with the help of my "second wind" I again start my journey... But the things are not the way they are supposed to be...What f*c$king piece of shit is this man?? I can't get close enough, i can't get far away... Oh good God!!... I'm in the middle of nowhere... What the f*ck shoud i do now?? I start to cry for help!! But no one seems to listen to me... Damn!!... I'm struck..And then suddenly my phone rings... And i woke up Thank God... It was a dream... But after many years still I doubt whether it was a dream or my journey to a place called Earth??... And it never seems to be solved...

डरता हूँ मैं कहीँ कोई मेरे ज़ख्मो पर वार ना कर जाए ,
दबे हुए मरहम को कही कोई बेनकाब ना कर जाए ,
डरता हूँ मैं उडती पतंग पर कहीँ कोई पथराव ना कर जाए ,
जीवन कि डोर पर कहीँ कोई घाँट ना बन जाए .
डरता हूँ मैं जिन्दगी कि लहरों पर कहीँ कोई रुकावट ना बन जाए ,
आस्मान पर उद्तेय पक्षी को कही किसी कि नज़र ना लग जाए .
डरता हूँ मैं जीवन कि उस सचायी से ,
जिसने बाँध रखा है, उन बंदिशो ने जिन्होने जकड रखा है ,
शायद इस दर के कारन ही जिंदा हूँ मैं ,
शायद इस दर के कारन ही जिंदा हूँ मैं....